Showing posts with label dad. Show all posts
Showing posts with label dad. Show all posts

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Will they ever learn?

So if you know me you know the history, if you don't here is a quick recap. My dad had a drinking/fighting problem for many years. He was in prison for 6 years from the time I was 12 until I turned 18. He got out just in time to see me graduate. He's not a bad man, just stubborn and very simple minded. His way or no way pretty much. I always went to visit him once a week and we remained as close as you can given the situation. Our relationship is very odd but long story short he has gotten pulled over 4 times now including this Saturday when he actually got into an accident. He fears he will go back to jail now since this is his 4th driving on a suspened liscense. Years ago I would have cried and tried everything I could possibly do to find a way to get him out of this. I think that this and other things may be cause to my serious anxiety disorder, the constant worries of will he go away again for a long time and when will I see him again, he is so unhealthy will he survive? I was constantly nagged daily with these worries which now I realize I could not prevent or control. Now that I have a daughter I would never put her thru anything like that or want to be away from her. I just don't understand how or why he would or could have allowed these thing to happen over and over. Why wasn't he worried he wouldn't see his kids, grandkids I just don't understand!
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